Thursday, June 14, 2007

The Obvious

Readjustment is difficult. It's not very fun. I'm struggling.

Here I am, discussing the obvious again. Of course coming home would be hard, I knew that when I left FOR Hong Kong. Well, it is. There are so many adjustments. I feel like I felt when I was first adjusting to Hong Kong, only this is home, and it's supposed to feel, well, like home. And it doesn't really. I am also discovering my identity, yet again. Way back in September, I was discovering...
Christ is sufficient
Surrender
Submission.....

(PM had a four word catchy thing, that reminded me of Sonlife, which unfortunately, I cannot remember it in it's entirety, thankfully though, the results of those lessons have remained)

Well, I'm listening to Delirious? which has an amazing version of MY GLORIOUS, which I am copying a portion of it.

God is bigger than, the air I breath, the world believes that God will save the day, and all will say, my Glorious.

I was reading Proverbs 16 today, and I don't remember which verse it is, but it says that the LORD detests dishonest scales and weights, and then continues to say that God is the one who holds the bag that the weights is in anyways.

At this point in time, I feel dizzy: like someone made me put my forehead to a baseball bat on the ground and spin around forty times, and then told me to run in a straight line. Not that I'm literally dizzy, but this whole readjustment thing is very disorienting. I guess this is the part where I say that I'm glad that God holds everything and that it's all going to be back to normal once I give it time. Which I do believe. I believe that what is happening in the world is bigger than me, and that my life is just a minute portion in an amazing hand woven rug that extends over the universe. I do believe that. And I believe that God is good, and I know that I am His, and that I am in the shadow of His wing. But I'm saying, that it is so hard to run this race when I am feeling so dizzy. There's a reason why He said it wouldn't be easy.